Secrets
I Spent 30 Days Saying "No" to My Kids, and I Nearly Lost My Seat at the Table
I’ve always been the "Logistics Dad." I’m the guy who makes sure the 529 plans are funded, the tire pressure is perfect, and the backyard fence is stained before the rot sets in. In my head, my "Yes" was the roof over their heads and the food in the fridge. That was the contract. I work, I provide, I protect.
By Wisewords24 days ago in Confessions
Letter III — On What Reorders Us Without Asking
Letter III — On What Reorders Us Without Asking The Void, beyond the 22nd century Aida, I am not writing to explain anything to you. Nor to convince. Nor to teach. I am writing because some encounters do not add ideas to us— they rearrange us. Most of our lives are built on a quiet assumption: that we are the center. That we read, choose, enter, and exit meanings at will. That texts stand before us, waiting to be interpreted. But there are words that do not stand before consciousness. They relocate it. The Qur'an does not position itself before your awareness. It repositions your awareness itself. It does not offer itself as an object of reflection, but acts as a force of gravity. You do not move around it untouched. You are moved. What I have learned slowly, unwillingly is that human beings do not live inside ideas. They live around centers. Every self revolves around something: a desire it cannot release, a fear it cannot face, an image it must protect, a future it keeps postponing itself toward, a past it secretly obeys. These centers shift. They compete. They collapse. And when consciousness expands—through thinking, ambition, imagination, abstraction, it often mistakes dispersion for growth. It believes it is becoming freer, while quietly losing its axis. Expansion without a center does not liberate. It fragments. There is a reason instability feels modern. Not because we think too little, but because we orbit too much.
By LUCCIAN LAYTH24 days ago in Confessions
Life is so still
Nothing seems to moving. Nothing is new. The same routine, same emotions some everything. I just can't be bothered. All the things I want seem so far away or just possible for that second they pop into my mind then bye. Uncertain and certain at the same time.
By Ella Loftus24 days ago in Confessions
I Lost My Voice in 30 Hours
Yesterday, I lost my Medium account. Not a password. Not a login. A history. Months of effort disappeared in a single night. Hundreds of posts. Countless revisions. Late hours spent wrestling ideas into sentences. What vanished was not just content but continuity. Writing is accumulation. Each piece leans on the last. When that structure collapses, the loss feels physical.
By Aarsh Malik26 days ago in Confessions
My Obsessive Father. Content Warning.
Let me go. Leave me alone. I don't want to do that and many more sentences like these that have ruled my life. This going to be a story about how I cut the cord between a father that, I want to say was but is still obsessed with me.
By Ella Loftus26 days ago in Confessions
The Shift
You might have thought this part is going to get better, its not. Such a low time, when I couldnt accept any of my blessings, bad thoughts were consuming me, they had holld of me. There was no hope. Honestly, if you asked me I could even see past the day nevermind tomorrow, I would deal with it tomorrow. That was the mindset. Terrible. Drowning.
By Ella Loftus26 days ago in Confessions
I think my soulmate found me in my dream
Another normal, boring evening. Made dinner, ate that and went to bed. I have been working on building my online business and following my heart calling. It is actually quite strange for me to be doing this and I know there is going to be people judging me. Honestly I think thats the hardest part. Staying true and believing in yourself through all of it. Im going to share how I did it.
By Ella Loftus26 days ago in Confessions
Broke Family
My mother, Summer, and my father, James, were never the love story people imagine when they think of their parents. Their story begin with pain, long before I was born. My mother was young, vulnerable, and trapped in a relationship where love had been replaced by fear. He drank, disappeared with friends, came home angry, violent, irrational. And my mother, with a child from a previous marriage, endured everything in silence.
By Lydia martinez27 days ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 横断歩道
Unfortunately I don't have time to retain anything anymore since I am barraged with the enviroment. I used to be able to learn 500 chinese characters a week and then, a bunch of jealous fucks told me to slow down. I felt self conscious of my ability to learn.
By Kayla McIntosh27 days ago in Confessions
