Faith in Fear

Fear, what a feeling you are

Your abiity to make me beieve I am less than I am

To make me run away from things that are good

Making me cower in shame away from the podium i once stood

Your ability to cripple my mind and make me struggle with basic things

Paying me to sit and believe that it is better than trying and failing

Ofcourse you pay and still tip in a currency of anxiety

You show up even in my moments of greatness

That's when I feel I got what I didn't fight enough to earn

Celeberations become occassions where my failures are cheered

Atleast to me, it feels like a failure because of the weight of time

Faith, what a feeling you are

Your ability to make me believe I am more than i am

To make me run towards things that are good

Standing tall even when i fail on platforms on which i shouldn't have stood

Your ability to strengthen my mind

To make me see the beauty in experiencing the litte things

Paying me to try because failure transforms into the incredible lesson

Ofcourse you pay and tip in the currency of hope

You show up in my lowest moments and deep ends

When i feel there isn't even much to live for

You play my blessings on rewind tape as an unfinished story

Which suddenly doesnt feel like a tragic tale where my wounds are sore