Exhausted

I play on my phone

and I play with my food

to keep from feeling alone

I sometimes play solitude

an adult orphan and mother

my children all moved away

my heart needs a buffer

from my feelings today

too old to be snuggled

too young to let go

I don't mean to be trouble

and I don't like merlot

I guess I need something stronger

cause I can't take much more

I can't hold on much longer

and I can't reason what for

cause I've been down this road

and found it leads me nowhere

and it's a tough row to hoe

when there is nobody there

so I hide in the darkness

becoming friends with the shadows

longing for relief in catharsis

to ease in my letting go

so when my eyes don't meet yours

don't feel the need to inquire

I'm no longer looking for cures

just for the means to expire